I started by writing the affirmations on my canvas. I wanted to set my intention to connect to my throat and what was going on.
From there I took my watercolor crayons and started coloring over the page. I wet a paintbrush with water and started blending the shades of blue and red. I added some paint and I even got my fingers in there and imprinted my fingerprints into the paint.
Then I started adding white paint and allowing it to drip from center. I didn't know why but I knew it felt right.
I continued the dripping technique with a vibrant blue.
And then some Payne's gray and red.
After about 30 minutes of the most amazing and powerful meditation I've had in a long time, I went back to my painting and painted a white orb in the center.
At this point I got into such a zone that I forgot to take a picture. I actually painted the orb iridescent gold and got out my gold gel pen and put in small dots radiating out from the center. I have to tell you, it took my breath away. I was so pleased with the way it turned out. I propped it up to get a good look at it and I knew it wasn't completed.
I started painting more circles emanating from the center orb and immediately I got this sinking feeling. I had ruined my beautiful painting and that's when I realized I hadn't even taken a picture of it. I was so disappointed. Well, I remember something I read in the Painting From Source book that said, if it looks ugly make it uglier. So that is the attitude I took.
I kept painting and painting in a sort of zone and when I finished I knew that the painting was complete. I felt it. It was perfect. Not because it is a masterpiece but because it is deep and personal and came from my soul.
It is filled with sparkling gold and glitter and shines in the light. It makes me feel good inside when I look at it.
Was I miraculously physically healed?
Am I getting better?
Am I healed in some deep way that I don't even quite understand?